Shush

I've been battling my thoughts this week.  I have a real problem with negative self talk.  I have a problem with doubting myself.  I have nagging worry, always there.  I'm constantly trying to quiet her annoying voice.  I recently heard someone describe anxiety as a feeling of impending doom.  "Yes, that's it," I thought to myself.  Not, oh, yeah, that's what I've been struggling with; I already knew what that feeling in the pit of my stomach was from.  I just had no idea how to describe the feeling; it's more of a you know it when you feel it sort of thing. That's what I've been feeling all week.  Dread.  Fear.  Panic. 

2a: a state of well-being and contentment

It's been awhile.  Where have I been? What have I been doing? Let me give you a little insight into me (soon-to-be old me).  Here's a bit of a journal entry circa September 2008...yes, 2008.  So let's take a little look @ the old  Ele.