Staring Blankly Ahead

...staring out the window, feeling nauseous and agitated this morning.  I'm just about to apply for jobs; that's all. It's what's bringing it on, though; I know. I am experiencing extreme anxiety.  It's about the need for a job and the fact that I've been avoiding even thinking about the urgency of having one.  I need to get back to work, get out of the house, get on with my career...now.  Because the holidays are approaching, and I'm sure that hiring will stall,  I feel this extreme pressure to apply for everything, right now.  I am trying hard not to start freaking out.  I'm sure applying will make it go away, but right now it's holding me back from getting started, on anything. ...must work through this.