It's Cold Outside

The husband and I took the puppy on a very short walk (.5 mile), but it still counts.  It's getting cold out there.  At the end I turned to him and said, "this wind blows."  Bahaha!  I cracked myself up with that one, mostly because there was truly no pun intended.  He did not react.  He's become quite good at this.  This just entertains me more because I know he is secretly very amused by me, clearly. Bahaha!

P.S. I know that today is a weigh-in day, and I've been missing these days lately.  However, this weigh-in will come late too because I am away from my scale.  My weight has been fluctuating a bit in recent days, but overall, I am down about five more pounds.

Autumnal Tints

The sister and I took the puppies on a walk again today.  That was our view.  So beautiful.  Happiness.  I find it really helps to have a walking buddy.  I would estimate that we walked 1.57 miles.  Ha, that figure sounds hilarious!  (I came up with that number based on the time we spent walking and my previous walking speeds.)  

 Guess what else?
Puppy? bathed
Faxes? faxed
Car? washed
Cash? deposited
Mail? picked up/sent
Lawn? mowed

P.S. The interview was a waste of my time (and that was after they kept me waiting for 40 minutes.  I had an appointment).  It wasn't even good practice.  The posting indicated that "multiple opportunities" were available.  There was one.  That position was basically an entry-level, clerical position.  The posting gave no indication of this.  From the beginning, it was clear to both me and the woman conducting the interview that this would not be a good fit.  I sent them my resume.  They should have reviewed my educational and professional background and realized that.  I'm not really sure why they even called.   Rude.  Unprofessional.
A word to describe my job search? Insulting.

Silver Lining

Confession: I haven't had an interview for awhile.  I have one coming up, though, so I just tried on my suit.  Um, yeah, those high-waisted pants definitely sit much lower now!  They'll still work, which is good because I don't think I would quite fit into any of my smaller suits, and I have no time/desire/money to go shopping.

Workout Buddies

Tonight the puppy and I joined a friend for a walk (about 2.5 miles).  I almost canceled/rescheduled because I wasn't feeling it (with the crappy day and all).  I decided not to do that, though.  That is what I would normally do.  I'm so happy that I didn't cancel.  It was good to see my friend.  It was good to get out of the house.  We're going to try to get together for walks once a week.

Apply Yourself

I'm struggling.  I have been this whole week.  I have been doing my best to resist it, but it's not working.  My sleep schedule is extremely disrupted, and it's causing me to drag (majorly).  Then I'm beating myself up because I feel like I'm getting nothing done.  In reality I have been continuing with my baby steps, but I've also been avoiding. 

Tradition

I'm getting ready to head out to the football game with the family.  This is one of the things that consistently makes me happy, spending fall weekends with the family at the games.  I'm excited.  I'm happy.  I'm in a great mood, even though I'm up before 7:00.  I could use a coffee, though.

In the Zone (or Out)

Note to self: try things that you thought were outside of your comfort zone.  You may find that they're not, or that they become less so.  You may have fun.  You may not.  And that's okay too.

Shush

I've been battling my thoughts this week.  I have a real problem with negative self talk.  I have a problem with doubting myself.  I have nagging worry, always there.  I'm constantly trying to quiet her annoying voice.  I recently heard someone describe anxiety as a feeling of impending doom.  "Yes, that's it," I thought to myself.  Not, oh, yeah, that's what I've been struggling with; I already knew what that feeling in the pit of my stomach was from.  I just had no idea how to describe the feeling; it's more of a you know it when you feel it sort of thing. That's what I've been feeling all week.  Dread.  Fear.  Panic. 

Body Movin

  

The puppy and I just went on a 3.5 mile walk.  It took us 71 minutes.  It was hilly.  My legs hurt.  This is satisfying.  I am happy.

Early to Bed, Early to Rise

I have problems going to bed at night.  I often feel exhausted.  It would be so helpful to feel well-rested.  Yet, I still struggle with setting a sleep schedule.  Last night, though, I went to bed early (for me).  I got up early this morning.  I opened the blinds right away.  I got out of bed right away.  I got 7 hours of sleep.  I feel great.  I'm moving.  I'm getting stuff done.  I am happy.  (Take note, self.)

"October is the fallen leaf, but it is also a wider horizon more clearly seen." -Hal Borland

A cool autumn night is the perfect time to curl up with a big cup of cocoa with (a lot) of Bailey's, crawl under a a fuzzy blanket, and watch a movie I've been wanting to see for so long (Black Swan).  I'm warm, calm, relaxed... Welcome, October; it's so nice to see you.